I think I may have pushed my husband away for good after all the cheating and abuse, what can I do?

I've been with my husband Tyrone for 18 years and we've been legally married for 11 years. We're the same age and we been together since tenth grade. We were virgins and we gave our virginity to each other and everything. We have two sons and two daughters; ages 12, 10, 7 and 5. Now we're 33 but the past 8 or 9 years of our marriage have been real rocky. Tyrone was not the traditional husband. He and I shared cleaning chores, took turns cooking dinner and washing laundry and stuff like that. He's been unemployed for the past 10 months though but I still have a good job. Even though he was still a great help around the house, I would always argue with Tyrone about not having a job(although he's been trying). I made him feel low by calling him ';pathetic'; and ';sorry'; and reminding him that he'll never be sh*t without me. I was so wrong for that. But Tyrone is not innocent either, he has cheated on me many times throughout our marriage and instead of leaving him, I always resorted to the violence. I would slap him, punch him and hit him with any household object within my reach but he controlled himself. But two nights ago, things got bad. Even though it's been over a year that Tyrone cheated on me, I still felt that I had the right to do the same. So, I slept with my coworker's brother a few times. Tyrone was mad when he found out but he told me not to do it again. I called him a hypocrite and just to make him upset, I bragged about how good the sex was with the other guy. Tyrone got really mad and then he started packing his stuff and leaving while I cursed him out and pounded on him. Then my 12-year old daughter grabbed me to pull me away from her father and as a reflex, I slapped her. Tyrone got FURIOUS and then he actually slapped me for the first time. Then he took the kids and they went to his mother's house for the weekend. Tyrone emailed me and told me that after he brings the kids back, he don't think he'll be returning. I think he's serious this time and I feel so bad. I love him and I'm sorry I didn't appreciate him more. I think I might have pushed him away for good. Is there anything I can do or say to make this work? I'm crying my eyes out and I can't even pray about it.I think I may have pushed my husband away for good after all the cheating and abuse, what can I do?
Only thing you can do about it now is to learn from your mistakes and move on.I think I may have pushed my husband away for good after all the cheating and abuse, what can I do?
you shouldn't be together, your depending to much on much love but hitting come on you a ******** b*tch your kid did nothing wrong you should have been divorced along time ago and i hope he keeps the kids
wow....... you know, for the both of you, a divorce might be the only thing that could help you. it seems as though you DON'T love him anymore. if you are hitting him and hit your own daugter, then im sorry, but get away from him. and he would most likely take the kids because you slapped her and of the abuse to him. learn from your mistakes and move on.
Never hit your daughter like that. I'm sure all your children are scared to death. Watching the two people they love and trust the most beating on each other like that. Emotionally and physically.